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Question:  “ Hello Ma-Ryah, I have stumbled upon you months ago, but I ventured elsewhere and now I have been pulled back.

I guess my question to all of you would be about my confidence. I’ve recently started on my own spiritual journey and I believe I’ve been gifted with both empathy and a bit of clairvoyance. I feel I have what it takes to be able to figure out my own steps in life, which means referring to my spirit guide and my tarot cards and my own instincts without having to constantly rely on another medium to clarify things.

I know that I perhaps can reach deeper into what’s out there and grasp it, but I seem to fall short in the feeling I don’t have the fullness to carry through and constantly doubt myself.

I was wondering if you could offer any advice or even see me developing the confidence I know I need to have in order to reach another step in my spiritual progress?

And I was also wondering if this lack of confidence has stemmed from any of my past lives? I feel the sudden urge to know about them and understand them.

Thank you so very much for taking the time to read this and devoting energy towards helping me understand these things.

Lots of love and light,

Kamilah”

Answer: “ God’s Blessings! This is Ma-Ryah from the higher realms of God. We appreciate your question and for contacting us for assistance. We are always delighted to assist those who seek to know who they are in a deeper sense of knowing.

We do understand from the human beings we communicate with that confidence and belief in self is sometimes a difficult and challenging thing for the human to embrace about their own self. We see you differently and so do not see the hesitation as real as you yourselves do and so we are always delighted to assist someone in this way.

Confidence is of course gained through experience. Now you may very well say, I know that Ma-Ryah and we would of course agree with you. Were you to see our face as we say the previous remark you would indeed see a smile on the face as those words are written and spoken. One of the more beneficial ways for you to develop and to learn the confidence in what you receive as well as what you feel is to read and to practice with people you do not know. If you read for self or for those you know then your ego is always able to whisper in your thoughts, “of course you know this. You know this about them.” And if you were to say to your ego that you do not have memory of knowing this before then your ego will speak in your mind and tell you that “yes, you do know this. You have just forgotten hearing it before”, or seeing it as the case may be. Practicing on others who you do not know is not always an easy thing for human being to do for it is able to shake some of your fears and insecurities as well as create a sense of vulnerability in your selves. That is okay. Gently speak to your ego and let it know that yes, you may well be in error of what you receive and you may not get everything the person is looking for or expecting to hear about ~ but, you may also be right on and you may also speak of the very thing they were there to hear. Or even speak words they did not know they were waiting to hear until you spoke them! Allow it to be okay that some times you are right on and other times you are not. You are always able to ease the worry of the ego over this by comforting it with the knowledge of truth. You are practicing so you may improve and know your gift more fully.

When you doubt you are able to do this and live your gift and wonder if you are able to do it, just be gentle with your self and remind your self the knowledge or the gift would not come to you if you were not able and ready to create within it. Gently speak to the doubting part of self and say to it, ‘I am fully able to do this and I can trust what I receive.’ We realize this seems very simplistic and it is, and yet it also works. If your ego argues with it just be patient and gentle with it and let it know it is okay if sometimes you are in error. It is okay. When you are accurate, celebrate it. When you appear to be inaccurate see if you blocked it or prevented it from being said because of fear, worry or self-doubt. This all gives you information for you to work with and to learn from.

Another way to develop and strengthen your gift is to meditate. When we are asked what is the best way to develop a gift our answer is the same.. meditate, meditate and meditate some more. Some have difficulty meditating in the lotus position and others fall asleep if sitting or lying down. In that case do a movement meditation. Meditation takes you ultimately beyond the human and into who you are the Soul. Please do not be discouraged if the ego seems to control the experience of the meditation at first. It is okay. The ego demands and experience and so will draw to it the lights, colors, faces and sounds and in time it steps aside and you enter the Soul and communication with the Divine. When pursuing this journey three things are important to remember in how to be with your self as you grow and develop ~ patience, understanding and compassion.

We do not see the lack of confidence for your gift coming from a past life. We see it more from this life time and in experiences lived that shook your confidence in actions chosen and words spoken. You may visit what is seen in the linear understanding of time as a past life in your dream states, in meditation and in hypnotic regression. All of these ways are tools to assist you and yet ultimately where resistance comes from is not as vital as the fact it is there and limiting you. You may choose to say I have this resistance, this doubt, and so what? I still choose to do this, to learn and to grow in the most beneficial way possible. And then allow it to be so.

You may also desire to begin to make note of the times you are accurate in perceptions and messages in your every day life. Who is the next one to call you on your telephone? Who is the first person you see when you leave your home? What song on the radio do you have no doubt you hear that day? Think of someone and then see them or hear from them. These are but a few ways human beings use their intuition and often do not pay attention to it. Many brush it off as consequence. Is it truly? Perhaps not... again said with a smile on the face. What happens when you begin to make note of something you felt or knew before it occurred is it calls your consciousness to this and thus encourages your ego to pay more attention to how often it occurs. This then gives you more knowledge to share with your ego when it next tells you that you are not able to do this well enough. Practice, meditate and trust what you receive. If we may be of further assistance in your journey you merely have to ask and we do indeed respond.

That is all. God’s Blessings.” Ma-Ryah