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Question: “ Dear Ma-Ryah, I have placed a replica of my heart into my God box with the intention to have my heart softened. Lately I have been experiencing an overwhelming sense of sadness. As if I am carrying a secret in my heart I can’t allow myself to know. Is this connected to my unfinished business on the beach, or have I just tapped into a place in my heart that hasn’t seen the light for a very long time? This morning I felt it necessary to intend for my heart to be eased of this ache. I don’t want to mask what is there because I feel this is important. Suggestions will be appreciated.” Light and Love, Aggie, N.J.

Answer: “ God’s Blessings Aggie! This is Ma-Ryah from the higher realms of God. We are pleased to respond to your question and we do so appreciate you submitting it here for us to answer in this manner so perhaps another is able to see their own self within your question as well as your answer.

We are very pleased to see you are working in a conscious way with your God box! By your question we are able say to you, it is working for you! You may not agree with this completely because of the sadness and pain you are experiencing with your heart in this moment of time, and yet because of this sadness you are able to tell your work with the God box is working. 

Your intention placed within your God box along with a replica of your heart is to have your heart softened ~ in other words to be able to let down your shields and allow your self to both experience receiving love as well as creating from love. When a heart is filled with the sorrows, pain, disappointments, shadows and wounds of the human experience of pain, fear, separation and isolation it becomes full of these things. Once it is full shields are created and if continued the organ of the heart manifests illness and disharmony. In order to have room so to speak for something else to be placed within your heart it becomes necessary to clear out the ‘old’, so the ‘new’ may now occupy that space.

We commend you for choosing to do this for your self. You have had many moments in your life that validates the shields placed there over time. Like most human beings you became adept at looking at a moment of pain, sorrow or disappointment briefly, begin to feel what is raised within you to feel, choose quickly not to view it or feel it and so it is put away in the storage bin of the heart. Your egos are very gifted at finding reasons, explanation and justifications for not feeling these emotions or looking at what has been created and experienced. The ego says, ‘this hurts’, ‘I don’t have time for this!’, and seeks to hide it away. Over time the organ becomes full and then the human being begins to seek ways to feel and know joy, happiness, love, contentment and peace. What they find is; there is no room for these states of being to exist as the heart is full of what has already occurred over time in the life of the human being. The shadow, the ego creates ways to appear to seek and know the state of being of joy, happiness, love, contentment and peace and of course actually creates experiences to let you know it isn’t possible. Sometimes what then occurs is the human gives up and says to self,’ this is for some people but isn’t for me.’ And the human being in defeat gives up, often unaware of the celebration occurring within the ego and shadow self.

At some point in every human being’s evolution and transformation the decision made is to not accept this as a truth. A realization is known within the depths of the human being that no, that is not true! Love, happiness, joy, contentment and peace are natural states of a human being and it was forgotten along the journey while creating in the shadows. This human being now begins to walk within the knowledge and remembrance of the conscious Human Being and knows they are able to know and create within this and so begin the transformation process. You, dear Aggie, are at that point in your life and we do applaud and celebrate you!

You are able to see just how much sadness is stored within your heart by the amount of sadness you have been experiencing. Is it truly overwhelming? No. Does your ego desire to have you perceive it as that? Absolutely! For if it is indeed overwhelming you will not look at it, you will not feel it, you will not hear it and you will lock it away once again within the organ of your heart and the ego sits back satisfied it has once again averted being seen. But, because it does seem overwhelming, how then do you work with it and not be overwhelmed? We shall assist you with this.

Pick a moment in time and create a commitment to have a chat with self, meaning the ego. It does not matter which level or ‘face’ of the ego shows up for the chat, just so an aspect of the ego shows up. Speak to this part of self and reiterate your intention of creating gentleness and reception of love as well as creating from the base of love. Acknowledge the journey to belief of sadness and the experiences that created it’s validation have been many and it has taken a lot for the ego to create and manifest these experiences for you to know and have throughout many moments of life. Speak of what you know about your self you did not know before you became conscious of just how much sadness you held within you. Acknowledge that holding this depth of sadness within was not an easy journey to create within and you do know how difficult it was to accomplish. Communicate also that though the sadness appears to be overwhelming, it is not. What is held is the end result, the sadness of the experience lived and already created upon. You are not once again reliving the experience in it’s total moment and experience. You are feeling the emotion stored from that moment in time. Communicate with your ego you now give it a different task. Instead of looking for ways to manifest and to make real the experience of separation, isolation, fear and judgment, you now assign it the task of creating ways to make manifest and real the experience of love, happiness, joy, unification and acceptance just as you are. Let it know it is able to do this, for look how well it created the other states of Being! As always, when the ego begins to create upon the new task you have given it, acknowledge and celebrate with your ego when it does what was assigned to it to do.

What do you do with all the sadness stored inside? Create ways for it to be released. Some times it is setting aside time to feel sad, to cry from sadness. Some say to us, “ but Ma-Ryah, I can’t just decide to be sad and cry and have it be there!” Yes, you can. Use tools of your world if necessary. When you set aside a moment in time to feel the sadness or to cry it is important to fulfill your commitment to self and do this. Otherwise once the sadness is given permission to be seen and felt, it appears to overwhelm because it just happens all the time! You are not always able to be in that state of being in your lives so in order to not create within that, you create a time and a moment this occurs. As we stated, use the tools of your world if necessary in order to facilitate the release of the sadness or the tears held within for so long. Listen to music which calls forth sadness. Watch movies that do the same thing, or read a book or poem that calls sadness forward. Take out photographs and look at them and allow memory of emotion to be revisited. It is not so important to remember all the experienced causes of the emotion. The experience in linear time is past, the emotion remains present. You are also a gifted artist. Use your art to create an expression of sadness. Invite this part of you to create with you a painting, honor it in this way. Set a time limit if desired for how long you sit with this part of you and allow release of the emotion. When you reach the time you have given to this moment to be known you may find the ego will seek to have it expanded past the time you have set for your self to be there with the sadness. Gently speak to this part of self and remind it, you are willing and able to feel what was stored within you but you also create and manifest upon a commitment to experience and know something besides sadness. Gently remind it you return and spend time with it, and then state the time, the day or the moment you have chosen. As long as your word to self is followed through with, in time the ego will join with you in making sure this happens rather than resisting or fighting you within this.

Be sure to also be open to finding and creating within moments of life that show you and share with you the experience of happiness, joy, laughter, celebration of life, balance, harmony, grace and of course, love! You are also able to continue to consciously work with your God box and place a representation of your sadness in your God box, knowing the Absolute Love found within your God box continues to heal and to assist your sadness to return to what it truly is ~ joy!

We do celebrate you in this venture very much! God’s Blessings.” Ma-Ryah